No one will cry at my funeral

I know how dead you're inside
How worthless you feel, I know how you look into a mirror and hate what you see,
I'm done I've had enough.
You wanna know what I'm scared of?
I'm scared everything
I'm scared to move
I'm scared to breathe
I'm scared touch you.
You made me love you
You made me let you in
And the you freaking die in my arms
It doesn't matter what I do
No matter what I choose  I'm wrong
There's nothing I can do about it
If I'm hurting myself I'm hurting averyone
Around me. There's nothing I can do about it.
I'm BROKEN
I was so alone and I owe you so much
I don't know what say, say it's my fault.
Say I  failed.
How do you keep going?
When the worst thing has happened?
What do you have to change inside to survive?
Who you have to become?
Why didn't you so something?
You should've done something.
You did nothing! One more thing, one more miracle for me. Don't be dead. I really don't see reason for trying or talking or for breathing I'm just done.